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fall to pieces

because everything i touch turns to dust
in the firm grip of my hand
i hold you tightly and then look away as you fall to pieces
because everything i see is black i look at you and no light reveals itself to me through the shadows of my doubt
because everything i do is imperfection i miss the point of our conversation losing hope that tomorrow might be better than today has been
because everything i do affects others i hide within myself waiting for you to turn and walk away somewhere there is safety from my curse

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only yesterday...there once was this group of kids. some would have called them the outcasts of the school. they preferred the "misfits" or, even better, the geeks. they lived in their own little worlds, so separate, but at the same time they were the closest that friends could possibly be.

there was this school. it was ratty and falling down. every day it seemed that something new needed to be fixed. every day it became more and more apparent that there was no money with which to fix it.

there was this class, too. their class. the class that pulled together so nicely on spirit week, but still couldn't manage to raise enough money only yesterday...
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the days go byanother day passes me by without stopping to say hello on the crowded streets of time. we just continue down our individual paths of life and love and relative happiness until we find that fork in the road that everyone's been talking about so much lately. we'll all go our separate ways
unless it's destiny for us to meet again along this road. the laughter and smiles of yesterday fade into the darkness of unkown, what tomorrow may or may not bring.
fireworks upon a grassy hill wet with dew from the evening and rich with the sound of voices singin the days go by
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what now?some days it's like i hardly know you. like i hardly ever knew you. you're so distant. i know you're hiding some things from me. and this feeling inside of me, i can't bear to be without you. i can’t think of this life without you, my friend. my only friend, at some points. my closest and most true friend of friends. my everything. yes, you’re still my everything.

some days i feel so conflicted. why do i love you the way that i do? guys? girls? you? how can i possibly fathom these feelings, these emotions? it’s getting hard to breathe as i lay here crying, thinking of what to say to you. honesty is the best policy, but how do yo what now?
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and it beganit begins with a warm morning. a gentle breeze off the water swirling my hair playfully in it's soft bursts. the sun glimmering on the river's ripples, transforming them into sapphire blue treasures. i try to take a picture in my mind, to remember the smell of spring just budding. to remember the wind on my skin, and the sun hot against my dark hair.

i run barefoot from the river up the steep trail, dirt flying behind me as i race toward the strawberry shortcake that is surely waiting on the table. the sweet reward stains my tongue red, the color blending with the pink of my tanktop. my feet are brown and dirty beneath the table and it began
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Wed Jun 9, 2004, 6:27 PM

hey guys....

just writin to cath up with all the stuff that's been going on. i am really excited about leaving on sunday!!! i mean, i'll miss all you guys, but junior statesmen is gonna be SOOOO FUN!!! i got money in grants today, also. i am pretty excited about that too. i am also happy bc my grades are good, and bc school is OVER! like....for real. i have been laying outside on the lawn in front of the school all week. it's pretty sweet. so yeah, that's kewl too. i am gonna be gone for 3 weeks, so miss me, love me, and leave some pretty notes and such for me when i get back!
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you all
~~~mere~~~

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Current Residence: far edge of nowhere
Interests: lotsa stuff...reading, singing, dancing, music in general, plays, hanging out with my friends
Favourite movie: chicago, the emperor's new groove, the ring, gangs of new york
Favourite band or musician: disturbed, mudvayne, linkin park, alanis morrisette, my boyz from SPITTLE!
Favourite genre of music: rock mostly, but anything that is original and sounds good
Favourite artist: um...people i know who draw, lotsa people on da
Favourite poet or writer: emily dickinson, madeleine l'engle all the people who wrote the dragonlance series
Operating System: my computer *smile*
Shell of choice: shell? snail shell i suppose...
Wallpaper of choice: pink with dots, naturally
Skin of choice: baby skin!
Favourite game: monopoly, lol
Favourite cartoon character: sakura, from card captors ^-^
Personal Quote: "if the genes don't fit, don't wear them!"
Tools of the Trade: my mind, computer or pen....sharp knives...